what's on my mind:
college. scholarships. ap physics work. ap art work. scholarships. scholarships. taylor. scholarships. ap physics. feed my cats. clean turtle tank. feed turtles. go to bed early. taylor. scholarships.

what i'm doing:
tetris

sigh. never enough time to do anything. i'm never pleased with or feel that anything is perfect, and each day has only gone downhill since school started. even the weekends. :\ i never get to watch all my movies, it's been raining, i dont talk to my friends much anymore, my cousin and i aren't as close as we used to be, i've gained weight, i've become such a unhappy person. like, last year, and the summer before, i was alright. i still had the mindset i had the summer before, and i still had mindful thoughts and did things carefully, set aside time for all my friends, was honest, and now, i'm a totally different person. i'm so deep into whatever it is that i'm in, it would mean for a very extensive break from internet, people, and school to be back to normal. or something similar to that -_-

i feel so stupid. at starbucks today, i went to buy an Izze bottled drink, and the man at the register said, "200 pennies" and i was like "...wahh" and it took me a minute. i do believe that has been the dumbest thing i have done this entire year. i swear, we learned that in elementary school! gahh!

also, i'm pretty sure that my turtles have finally eaten all the minnows i bought for them a month and half ago. it was gruesome watching them tear apart the first one, and now i can't even find the other ones. they are either dead or hiding.